November 23, 2009

1. Gemini (5/21-6/21)

   Time has a funny way of taking the pain out of agonizing events. So before you get too swept up in the sentimentality of the day, be sure you're remembering everything correctly -- with your mind, not just your heart. Dreams, nostalgia and thoughts of how great things used to be are on your mind and having a powerful effect on you. If you need some clarity, pull someone who was there aside and ask them for a recap. Chances are you'll see reality.

Seriously October this year felt so damn long!!! Let see my uncle's wedding is finally over. I can stop worrying about what to wear. Halloween I wasnt planning on going out but I ended up going to three ending parties... haha wasn't too bad plus I can say that I stay at three parties till it ended. I was trying to go for a Lotilta look but I got caught between going for cute or more gothic so at the end I was caught in the middle going more toward cute. No one really got who I was going as so I just told people that I was a dumb chinese girl (blonde bimbo) the other response was... just myself. lol thats what you get when you don't put enough effort into it. Today however one of my friends actually mention Lolita and I was happy. haha means that I did have a bit of a success. Should have put more makeup on the eyes... not that I didn't have a few layers on already.

I have been trying to quit smoking but right now still on and off. I believe that my "colds" are associated with smoking, that is why it never really goes away. I was just feeling better and then I started to smoke again and bam I got a cold again.

Tomorrow is my dad's birthday. My mom told us that we are eating in and that we have to prepare dinner. That means i gotta get up early to figure out what to cook, find the recipe, prep, and cook. now what time can I actually get my @$$ up.

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On another note I am wondering how my ex-friend is doing.

There was a friend of mine Z he was telling me about how after a relationship there is no such things as being friends (at one point I would disagree, but as of now I agree). anyhow Z and his gf had broken up about 6months ago after going out for 3-4years. he was telling me that there should be no contact what so ever. the ex (who already found someone new) kept calling him and he would ignore it. Recently he started talking to the ex again and... we know this is where trouble starts. He was once hurt again. I didn't even know how to confort him. Its like we all know the right thing to say, even if we can't do it ourselves. we also know that the things coming out from our mouths are the better choices to the situation. but we also know how hard and seemingly impossible it can be to accomplish at that point in time. because of those points, anything coming out of our mouths are just BS to the other person.

I could almost felt his pain and anger and it was most likely directed more to himself than the other person. If he had just stuck to his plan he might not have gotten hurt by the same person again. I have sorta been on both sides of the situation before and now I can see how evil it was to try to stay friends. aye... therefore... I beleive that if you have a good friend let it stay that way. Friendship after a relationships are really rare.